My birthday...

Lol.. You were not home..Dont dare to ask where are you for i know you're not in a good mood..
Eventho its quite hurting dat you're not home when family are celebrating it with me..
Hais..Damn...
Had a great talk with mama just now..And she made me feel stronger..
Anyway,My aunt who bastard me RABAK2 asked lin to msg me saying happy birthday..
Hah..MEANINGLESS lah sey.. (sdgkan kau dulu tak pernah puas hati ngn aku..Hepi per skrg..??)
Hmm...This family gave me a reason for me to continue move on...
Living thru with up and downs of life...
They gave me the meaning of family..
Care and concern...
Nice day i had...Eventho not dat Happening but i find it damn nice..
Got a birthday cake from Mak..A winnie the pooh (and a box of cigg) frm Kak Dayah
A winnie the pooh cup set(comes with a spoon) and dunnoe wat to cal dat Flower that wrote
"ur sooo sweet" from Kak hanim & Along...
Quite a lot huh..
Papa and mama BLOM KASI! haha...

From you, dont mention lah..
Seeing you smile again is the best present..But,No...
Not even a smile...
I wish for a kiss from you but i know dats too much to ask for so just a smile would b enuf..
Dreamt of u again this afternoon
As per usuall,dreamt dat we get together as close as before..
Lotsa tym ordy lah sey...
Got bored of it for i know its kinda impossible..
But boy, if you're doing this because you're upset with Mak or sumtyng,Pls dont..
Cus it hurt me lots..
I know you wouldn't want to hurt Mak's feeling but too don't lie to yourself...
In a meaning your lying to me also...
Confusing...
Hais..Just don't know what to say ordy lah sey...
Tired of trying ordy..
Like wat mama & papa said, Go with the flow...
Hmm....
But just hope that me , you , papa and mama could go out together one day to
celebrate my birthday....
Let it be a memory and sweetness of the year...
I love you boy...