Knowing That I Should Go..

Money, an sensitive issue among evrytyng in this blurdy expensive world ...

Need it in everytyng, even to have a relationship, wats more public toilet!

Dan mengenai isu itu lah yang aku dituduh melakukan...

Tertekan?.. yes of cos.. lagi2 bila bakal laki aku sendiri tk caye yg AKU TK BUAT!

Aper lagi yg boleh dikatakan kan..tk gitu..??

Al maklumlah, kita nie background family pun tak sempurna.. Keluarga kita bukan org baik2...

Insan yg hina lagi di pandang serong... Menangis? Yes i did..

Im disappointed, upset , LOSt, HURT!!

Aku tk dapat nk berbuat apa2... Cus aku tk berdaya... No prove to point finger..

And i dunt wanna say anytyng, cus pipol will always wunt side me..

KAU ORG LUAR FIQAH,JANGAN LAH LETAK HARAPAN ...

MEMANG TUHAN TU BERKUASA,MAHA ADIL TAPI KAU KENE INGAT, DOSA APA YG KAU LAKUKAN DAN INI MUNGKIN PEMBALASAN, ATAU MUNGKIN JUGAK SATU DUGAAN YG HARUS KAU HADAPI NUR'AFIQAH.

Aku dah tak tau aper lagi aku nk buat, aku pasti ada pihak yg tk boleh terime bahawa darah dagingnyer yg menjadi suspect aku dlm hal ini, but sorry , i have my reasons why i suspected her and much2 more relevant than ur reason for suspecting me.. And the funny part it, u suspected me when i dunt even have a stick of cigg to smoke, not even a dollar with me now..

Its only like 15cents that i have in my bag...

Satu jer harapan aku,Moga TUHAN tunjukkan la petunjuk, tunjuk kan bahawa aku tk bersalah dalam hal ini, bahawa aku tk mencuri duit yg hilang 2 kali tu..

Walaupun aku ni anak yatim yg mak bapak tak ajar, aku nie jahat,

but sorry , not stealing wise and not including other pipol in my badness.. I did almost evrytyng to myself.. Not even encouraging the others to come along..

And for you sayang,

See, when i get the strenght to leave,

You always tell me that you need me.

And im weak cause i believe you..

And im mad because i love you..

So I stop and think that maybe

You can learn to appreciate me

Then it all remains the same that

You aint never gonna change..

See my days are cold without you

But im hurting while im with you

And though my heart cant take it no more

I keep on running back to you

Baby why you hurt me , leave me and desert me

Boy i gave you all my heart and all you do is tear it up

Looking out my window,knowing that i should go

Even when i packs my bag, this something always hold me back..

Wild2 Wet..

Went for an interview at singapore warehouse .. Applied at Giordano..The HQ is there..
She said she will call me for the 2nd interview ..
Haha,will wait.. Hopefully,berkat nk dkt besdae nie kan, dapat lah kerja tu
Aku kerja pun dgn niat baik... Haha..mcm paham...
Now waiting for hubby to alek work...Ubby cepat sket alek i nak rokok!! haha
Tinggal 2 hari jer nie!!!

Birthday Coming..

Well, dAt bloody day is coming again..after one year...Hahaha!!
Damn,yes upset much like last year... Again,not with Family...
Listenig to dis song reminds me of my past, my RELATIVES and of cos, My father..
U DAMN BLURDY HURT ME PA..And even ur future son in law wanna be cant understand dat...
He dunt even bother to talk to me bout the pain that u have caused Pa.. Im facing tyngs alone...
Not lyk those words that MJ said, "You are not Alone"
IM ALL ALONE,DAMN IT.. Anyway, hubby coming home daedy..Nampak aku nga online nti dier memekak,..Hahahahaha. astala vista Babeeeiiiyy...

Check out the song Bukan Niat Membalas Derita - Slam
It kinda defines how i feel...

Lie,Lie,Lie

Muahaha, Lie huh.. Best per..
Makcik Kao lawa ehk... Waliowei...
Tkmu nie mcm uhk brader..Nk tipu pun agak2 uhk...
Gua esai ,gua kasi muke tu hari, Lu prek sama gua ka?...
Ini maciam Tailong pon mengamuk woo...
Nyonya jual sayur pun bole tukar jadi hulk..
Gua bkn campor ini mcm punya org sehari dua.. (3-4 hari insya-ALLAH ader..)
Hahas.. Still laughing bler da nie mcm... Baek kan aku..
Penyabar.. (ehem2...)
Siol ler..tk logic sey.. Beh ku msn, tau kanchong..
RASAIN LU APER YG GUE RASAIN...
Muahahaha..!!
(Senangnya dlm hati kalau berlaki dua...tiga...empat setgh..)
Hahahahahahahaha.....

Hais...

The day was not so good, shit happens in dis place, Ubby's place..
Well, im not comfortable to publicize it hell down here..Too personal...
Hais... The thing that make me kinda touch now and sad is bout Eu Hubby...
Going for a class that ur job required eu to go was kinda fine for me eventho it has to be early in the morn...But the damn thing was eu nid to go back to work after dat damn class dat finishes at around 5pm... And I guess much that u will have to stay to do ur inventory which will roughly ends at aorund 3aM.. Sayang , ur body cant take it, thats too much...
I cant bear to see eu continue to work after that class... Waliowei...
Kalau sport car asyik kene tekan tu mcm jer pun. meletop sey...
Walaupun keluarga kita tak kaye , tak semestinya eu have to force urself like a terminator...
I cant bear to see it Yang...Cant bear to..

Masa gitu aja kamu ko bokolokokok

Damn...

Psal Gulung pun bleh jadi satu hal..tk relevant,,Lau nk cari alasan utk binget nk revenge sal tdi pagi aku bising pon tkyah nie mcm per... baru igt nk record tk gaduh, dah gaduh agik..sial uh...

Pukaywak...

Da mcm cat and dog uh.. dah uh ehk... tkyah nk cekik duit dier agi uh, soon finding werk ..

Itu part jgn kata gulung, kapas pun bleh beli sendiri uhk!

Nk isap rokok pun susah, mcm mintak dadah pulak...Stress per...

Terbantot siak tdi niat nk g merokok... Mcm nk buang jer...

BABIIEE.. Binget lah sial..... buto ler...

TAK PERNAH ADER YG HALANG AKU NYER MEROKOK SMP GINI!!!!!

NENEK AKU SENDIRI TK LEY HALANG, APATAH TAHA BEH DIER PULAK!!!

AAARGGHHHH!!!

Tk bley trime nie lau psal rokok...tk buleh,tk buleh... ini rokok mahhh....

Bloody AsshOLe..

U were home at last.. 7am plus at tym... damnit...

Cant help it,rase hepi tu ader, cume ego jer, step marah...

Step tanak layan rabak..but his softness do melts me tho..wtf...

Aku binget sendiri at last..aku nk marah pon tk smp hati sal dier kejap lagi gi kerje..

nk gaduh pun kesian sial....

PUKKIIIWAKKK!!

AKU KESIANKAN KAU PEY PASAL LAH SUNDAL AKU TAK MAKI KAU !!

IKOTKAN HATI JGN HARAP AKU NK BERBUAL PUN!!!

but, wad de hell.. dun wry.. attitude mesti mau rabak jer nari.....

Pandai2 kau layan uh kaes!!

Anyway, if apit were reading dis, pls be inform dat aku rindukan kau lah setan....

Kau lah counsellor terbaik!! hehehes..